Row By Row

I don't want to fall for another blue eyed disaster

I keep telling my heart no

I feel its rhythm getting faster

With each passing glance my stomach drops once more

My dignity is on the floor

It's too late to save myself

There was nothing I could do to stop it

Feet swept out from under me

Trembling hands in coat pockets

Blurred vision and bruised values

So I sit

Waiting

Anticipating

Waiting for you to do what you’re good at

Making me crumble apart 

Pushing me further into the ground

I find myself building up my wall brick by brick

Silently

Trying not to make a sound

Waiting for you to do what you’re good at

Repeatedly breaking my heart   

Stop the ticking clock

I’m back inside

Locked

Surprising emotions fill me with fear

Trying to remember if he was ever really here

Just behind my belly button flowers grow

Black, purple and blue
Row by row

By S. Cyr

Timeline

All you ever wanted was me at first glance

So young but sure, like it all made sense

All I ever wanted was to know what I wanted

Running back and forth from thoughts that were haunted

All you ever wanted was me in your arms

I kept slipping away, giving in to another's charm

All I ever wanted were my heart strings no longer jumbled

A warm breath on my neck where your soft words were mumbled

All you ever wanted was for me to make up my mind

Waiting patiently for me to come back to you each time

All I ever wanted was you to take me back

Apologies and answers among the things I lacked

All you ever wanted was me forever

We found our perfect rhythm, hearts melted together

All I ever wanted was you forever

Soft I love you's whispered during sweater weather

All you ever wanted was your space and your freedom

Leaving me behind for your newfound kingdom

All I ever wanted was you to take me back

Ambushing you in green shirts with my plan of attack

All you ever wanted was to keep it casual

Locking you in, everything was still fragile

All I ever wanted was your love and attention

Your forced emotions and my misapprehension

All you ever wanted was someone else's love

Mine just a burden you were ready to be rid of

All I ever wanted was to stop being in pain

Letting you go forever, tears spilling down cheeks like rain

All you ever wanted was to say goodbye

Your choice something I had to abide by

All I ever wanted was you in the end

Left were your promises and a heart no one could mend

By S.Cyr